I was always considering to get an actual job. But I’m always just considering.
Now that a referral job that can allow me my morning vocal teaching class, I typed my very first résumé in my life last night.
I’m not a professional at all, have just graduated for a year.
I did a few jobs before, but in fact they are all still this same job, in the same industry.
I did participate in different kind of activities when I was young, while I did nothing representative these few years.. Not that I really did nothing, but no one with a job can do much now.
While I was listing my award and activities, I was quite amazed of how multi-tasked I was..
Ai. The old me.
And I don’t know how capable I am anymore.. After all these years hang in here.. I did nothing.
It is hopeless in this industry and in here now. However, there are hopes in the coming investment projects, in the untouchable future.
Future. Hope. But not solid.. Again.
I thought we could do great when we left Modern Education to go Cantab.
We did, and then Oten messed everything up.
I thought we could fix the Oten shit.
We did, and then David Chiu messed again.
I thought we could fix David shit.
We did, and then Ms Luk took everything away.
I thought we could do it all over again. But no, not in here, not with this criticized boss, unsupportive staff and poor administrative management.
But am I really leaving when they are in this hard time?
What do I do. What do I do.
I’m terribly confused right now.